Early Mother's day...

My Angel got me an early Mother's day gift today :), she is so adorable.

A brand new kinda free...

Inspired by Alicia Keys track: Brand New Me

 "It took a long, long road to get here
  It took a brave, brave girl to try
  It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
  Don't be surprised, don't be surprised
   ...I'm not expecting sorry
   I'm too busy finding myself
   I got this
   I found me, I found me, yeah..."

The words above are dedicated to my yesterday. 2012 came with amazing and tough lessons, cutting my hair has given me this amazing freeing feeling. I feel like when the hair fell off all my issues fell with it, watching the lady sweep my hair away gone was the heaviness that came with it. I can truly understand the brand new kinda free Alicia Keys is referring to in this track. 14 Feb. a year ago was the day my father died, when it came this year I felt like if only I could just hide away at least till 15 Feb. :).

02/07/1953-14/02/2012

The phone rang my sister on the other end asking if I have had the NEWS. Already I knew someone was dead however I was not prepared for what came next...she said with a faint voice :"Our father is no more" I don't remember what I said I think I said something like "I hear you I know you wouldn't lie about something like this but I don't believe you" for a couple of days I did not believe it. The news left me numb I didn't even cry. All I kept thinking how could I not feel my dads departure; why am I not feeling his spirit around me; was he in that hurry to leave and what the HELL was he doing there anyway; why didn't he tell me he was going home like he would normally do.Oh by the way all these questions didn't get me anywhere.

e-wallet

Oh my I am still sweating in places I never thought I had :). I was filling up petrol/gas when my Bank went offline.I did not have enough cash on me to pay for the petrol already in my car.Just minutes before the bank went offline I withdrew cash from an ATM thus I couldn't understand what was happening because I knew without a doubt that there was enough money in my account.I started calling friends and family to find a way to get money to me. Finally a friend of mine came thru for me thank GOD.